Redefined

I'm not who I thought I'd be.

It's not really bad that I'm not that woman, but I do sometimes wonder where she is.

I've made choices that easily changed the course of my life. I didn't go to college far from home. I didn't seek a job in my field far from home. I took a starter position in my field almost a year after college graduation that ended up going nowhere.

I graduated Summa Cum Laude from the college I chose to attend. I didn't work particularly hard for the degree. I chose to minor in speech communications which forced me to speak more than I was (and still am) comfortable with. That was probably the hardest part about college, academically, and I brought it upon myself. Truth be told, even that wasn't that difficult.

Even in high school though, I thought I'd be important. I suppose that's a common ideal. I thought I'd be a journalist after college. A writer. Well-known in some way.

I suppose that's my confession for today. I thought I'd be somebody important in the world. I'm not.

I am somebody important in this small world, however. The world of my family and friends. Perhaps that is more important than anything.